How do i say goodbye..?

The way things were going i didn’t see myself with you. After posting all these things about how i care what people think and what not i came to realize that i love you. Your the one person in this world that understands me and likes me for me and i’m pretty sure i cant find that anywhere else in this world. Yes, its a big world but my world consumes of only you. I know i’m only 15 and still have more to see. I see people in relationships everyday and think that there not going to split apart and they do or they don’t but i can’t picture myself with out my best friend. Im so happy i met you and its like a sign. God sent you to me. I work my ass off every day to be me and i have the greatest gift which is you and the part i don’t understand is if i have the greatest gift… why is it getting taken away from me? Not going to be able to see you everyday, kiss you, hug you, get piggy back rides and massages and anything i want,or driving lessons  and playing basketball and you teaching me how to play and getting down low in ready position or you getting me stuff or spending time with you in my room watching movies and cuddling. As i write this crying, i can’t bear not to…Every night i cry and wonder what’s going to happen next with us. You say you will love me forever and don’t want anyone else but things change.. people change. Im scared for what’s going to happen next. I guess i will just have to wait and see where the light guides me. All i know is there is no way i can get though this by myself. I just cant say goodbye to you baby. I love you so much… 10-10-11 <3 H.H 

My problem is I just care way too much.